I Got Friends In High and Low Places

So recently, well I guess not too recently. But back in March, I lost the one I called my “Best friend”. Some pretty nasty things had happened and suddenly, we decided it was time. Time for us to stop being friends. No, not just friends, best friends. I occaisonally would view her profile on facebook justt see how shes doing, because even though we arent friends, I still care. We were best friends for almost 6 years! I cant just drop all compasion for her. Well, today, I checked her profile agin, which I hadnt for a couple months. And it made me realized..I still miss her. I miss the crazy wierd times we had together. I miss the stupid jokes we’d make at 1am that we’d laugh about for hours, even though in the morning we realized, those jokes werent really all that funny. So why were we laughing so dang hard?! I still have our picture in my “Best Friends Forever” frame. All of our Blababooth photos we took in the phot booths at the mall, I still have those taped to my wall. I know some really horrible things were said and done by both sides, but is that really what the situation had to be? Not being best friends anymore?! Though, if we were to try now to be friends again, it would never be the same. And honestly, though I did and said things that maybe I shouldnt have, I blame the boyfriend. If he hadnt been in the picture, would this all still have happened? Because when he came into it, thats when I started to feel left out, rejected, almost not liked by my own best friend!! I guess theres always gonna be that part of me that wonders who’s fault was it? What really happend that actually caused all of this? Would we ever be able to be friends again? I always be left wondering if is she going through this too? Is she thinking about this? It still hurts..does it still hurt for her too?

Pinkerton Academy Class of 2012. Wow. Never thought Id make it this far. Its finally here, graduation. I have 7 days left of school, not including finals. This year has been so great, but then again, not the best. Ive lost a few friends along he way, but I guess it was inevidable. We were bound to choose different paths and lose touch eventually. Though it is a shame, I have no regrets; the things Ive said, the things Ive done, no regrets at all. I may have lost some friends, but I also made some along the way. And Im glad. I had a wonderful time getting to know everyone and exploring more with extracurricular activities.

I went to Florida with my Chorus in April. THAT was an experience, but a good one. I loved meeing new groups of people who have now become my friends!! I know we will be friends aftter graduation still. Even those who will be Juniors or Seniors next year. I just cant believe its almost the end. My last dance performance at PA has already passed, and soon, my last Chorus performance will occur.

Throughout the year, I started going to clubs. I really enjoy just having a night out with my girls!! I also met a boy!(: A few actually, but this one inparticularly, I like him. We’ve gotten really close these past few months. Through all the bullshit thats happened, hes been there. Hes really, the greatest friend anyone could ever hope for. I feel lucky to have him in my life!! Onaje Baxley, thank you for always being there and sticking it out with me through all the shit and the drama!!!(:

Ive had my ups and definately my downs throughout these four years, especially this year. Mann, this year feels like a rollercoaster!! But, Ive learned from everything thats happened. Ive also realized that maybe some of the things I say could be a drama-provoking thing, and Ive learned to control that. But I will still defend myself and others if I feel the need to. That is not dram, that is defense and caring about others!!

So now, here I am. About to leave highschool forever, and head to college. What an amazing time Ive had. Seniro Year…wow.