I Got Friends In High and Low Places

Still hurts..

Fri, 14 Sep 2012 20:19:51 -0400

So recently, well I guess not too recently. But back in March, I lost the one I called my “Best friend”. Some pretty nasty things had happened and suddenly, we decided it was time. Time for us to stop being friends. No, not just friends, best friends. I occaisonally would view her profile on facebook justt see how shes doing, because even though we arent friends, I still care. We were best friends for almost 6 years! I cant just drop all compasion for her. Well, today, I checked her profile agin, which I hadnt for a couple months. And it made me realized..I still miss her. I miss the crazy wierd times we had together. I miss the stupid jokes we’d make at 1am that we’d laugh about for hours, even though in the morning we realized, those jokes werent really all that funny. So why were we laughing so dang hard?! I still have our picture in my “Best Friends Forever” frame. All of our Blababooth photos we took in the phot booths at the mall, I still have those taped to my wall. I know some really horrible things were said and done by both sides, but is that really what the situation had to be? Not being best friends anymore?! Though, if we were to try now to be friends again, it would never be the same. And honestly, though I did and said things that maybe I shouldnt have, I blame the boyfriend. If he hadnt been in the picture, would this all still have happened? Because when he came into it, thats when I started to feel left out, rejected, almost not liked by my own best friend!! I guess theres always gonna be that part of me that wonders who’s fault was it? What really happend that actually caused all of this? Would we ever be able to be friends again? I always be left wondering if is she going through this too? Is she thinking about this? It still hurts..does it still hurt for her too?

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Thu, 05 Jul 2012 13:48:45 -0400

GOT MY DIPLOMA!! :D Im finally outta that hell hole!!!!

Thu, 05 Jul 2012 13:46:27 -0400

GOT MY DIPLOMA!! :D Im finally outta that hell hole!!!!

"The greatest danger for most of us is not that our aim is too high and we miss it, but that it is..."

Mon, 04 Jun 2012 08:22:12 -0400

“The greatest danger for most of us is not that our aim is too high and we miss it, but that it is too low and we reach it.
—Michelangelo”

"There is no telling how many miles you will have to run while chasing a dream."

Mon, 04 Jun 2012 08:17:47 -0400

“There is no telling how many miles you will have to run while chasing a dream.”

Thought of you when I saw this..
Wed, 23 May 2012 08:20:23 -0400

Thought of you when I saw this..

Senior Year...

Tue, 22 May 2012 08:48:48 -0400

Pinkerton Academy Class of 2012. Wow. Never thought Id make it this far. Its finally here, graduation. I have 7 days left of school, not including finals. This year has been so great, but then again, not the best. Ive lost a few friends along he way, but I guess it was inevidable. We were bound to choose different paths and lose touch eventually. Though it is a shame, I have no regrets; the things Ive said, the things Ive done, no regrets at all. I may have lost some friends, but I also made some along the way. And Im glad. I had a wonderful time getting to know everyone and exploring more with extracurricular activities.

I went to Florida with my Chorus in April. THAT was an experience, but a good one. I loved meeing new groups of people who have now become my friends!! I know we will be friends aftter graduation still. Even those who will be Juniors or Seniors next year. I just cant believe its almost the end. My last dance performance at PA has already passed, and soon, my last Chorus performance will occur.

Throughout the year, I started going to clubs. I really enjoy just having a night out with my girls!! I also met a boy!(: A few actually, but this one inparticularly, I like him. We’ve gotten really close these past few months. Through all the bullshit thats happened, hes been there. Hes really, the greatest friend anyone could ever hope for. I feel lucky to have him in my life!! Onaje Baxley, thank you for always being there and sticking it out with me through all the shit and the drama!!!(:

Ive had my ups and definately my downs throughout these four years, especially this year. Mann, this year feels like a rollercoaster!! But, Ive learned from everything thats happened. Ive also realized that maybe some of the things I say could be a drama-provoking thing, and Ive learned to control that. But I will still defend myself and others if I feel the need to. That is not dram, that is defense and caring about others!!

So now, here I am. About to leave highschool forever, and head to college. What an amazing time Ive had. Seniro Year…wow.

"Everyone says ‘Life is too short.’ When really, its the longest thing youll ever do."

Tue, 22 May 2012 08:34:29 -0400

““Everyone says ‘Life is too short.’ When really, its the longest thing youll ever do.””

Boy Meets World!!<333 My fave show!!

Tue, 22 May 2012 08:31:58 -0400

Boy Meets World!!<333 My fave show!!

Drake&Josh!!<3

Tue, 22 May 2012 08:31:03 -0400

Drake&Josh!!<3

Onaje……

Tue, 22 May 2012 08:29:48 -0400

Onaje……

I want my hair to be like this!!!!!! :D

Tue, 22 May 2012 08:18:26 -0400

I want my hair to be like this!!!!!! :D

YESS!!<33

Thu, 10 May 2012 08:11:37 -0400

YESS!!<33

Little Mermaid!!<333

Wed, 09 May 2012 08:31:55 -0400

Little Mermaid!!<333

Im going to marry him!!!(; The one in the red...

Wed, 09 May 2012 08:28:46 -0400

Im going to marry him!!!(; The one in the red pantsss!!!!!!!!!!<3333

lol! couldnt have said it betterrrrrr!!!!!!!

Wed, 09 May 2012 08:20:09 -0400

lol! couldnt have said it betterrrrrr!!!!!!!

HAKUNA MATATAAAAAAAAA!!!<333

Fri, 30 Mar 2012 08:55:23 -0400

HAKUNA MATATAAAAAAAAA!!!<333

D’awweee!!!!<33

Fri, 30 Mar 2012 08:54:47 -0400

D’awweee!!!!<33

18 Bitchesss!!!!!

Fri, 10 Feb 2012 21:26:03 -0500

On February 15th(in 5 days!!) I will be 18!!! I am sooooo frikken excited!!! And Im getting a cake that has Mater from Cars on it!! Yeah be jealous! LOL I cannot wait dude! An Im graduating in 4 months uuuhhh!!! This is sooooooooo awesome!!!!! And my parents actually didnt forget my birthday this time! My 16th and 17th they forgot -___- but whatever no big deal!!! Because they are soooooo NOT forgetting this one!!! SOOOOOOOOOO stoked!!! AAAHHHHHHHH!!!!! Wow!! I have been on this earth for 18 years! I have watched soooo many things be changed and rearranged. Some for the better, some not the best!! But thats ooookkk!!

In 5 days, I will officially be legal. And I will actually exist to the government!! Some people when they are 18, they are like “Awesome!! I can vote!!” Not me!! I am not voting this year!! All the candidates SUCK in my opinion!! Actually I heard Roseann from the Roseann Show is running, LOL Ill vote for her!!!

almost 18 Bitchessss!!!!!!!!

Just A Hook-up....

Sat, 21 Jan 2012 21:36:47 -0500

Sooo we meet. We instantly are attracted to one another. We hook-up. Then, you ask me out, lik on a date to the movies. I couldnt make it, so I canclled. But evey time we’ve hung out, or seen each other, you wanna hold my hand, so I let you. You wanna cuddle, so we cuddle. You wanna be alone, just you and I laying down together or just sitting in the back of your car talking about absolutely nothing, so we go off somewhere to be alone. You kiss me, every time we are together. At the club, you want noone else, but me. You dont wanna dance with all the pretty girls around you. You just wanna dance, with me.

Correct me if Im wrong, but this is basically us dating. So I get this idea that you like me. And I like you too. We never actually talked about it, our “relationship”. We never defined our status, or where we stand. Until today. Today I asked you. I talked to you about everything thats happened with us these past 3 months. Ive been going about these months believeing that you actually, truly liked me. Thinking that we are in a relationship. You told me you liked me “…as a friend or a hook-up! But not my girlfriend.”

Maybe I mis-judged this situation, I was wrong. I thought it was one way, but it was another. This, was a complete mistake. Now, I dont even know where we stand. How can we go back to friends?? Just like that?? It shouldnt be that hard, huh? Because we were always, friends, nothing more.

These last 3 months, I was Just A Hook-up.

I Got Friends In High and Low Places

Still hurts..

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GOT MY DIPLOMA!! :D Im finally outta that hell hole!!!!

"The greatest danger for most of us is not that our aim is too high and we miss it, but that it is..."

"There is no telling how many miles you will have to run while chasing a dream."

Thought of you when I saw this.. Wed, 23 May 2012 08:20:23 -0400 Thought of you when I saw this..

Senior Year...

"Everyone says ‘Life is too short.’ When really, its the longest thing youll ever do."

Boy Meets World!!<333 My fave show!!

Drake&Josh!!<3

Onaje……

I want my hair to be like this!!!!!! :D

YESS!!<33

Little Mermaid!!<333

Im going to marry him!!!(; The one in the red...

lol! couldnt have said it betterrrrrr!!!!!!!

HAKUNA MATATAAAAAAAAA!!!<333

D’awweee!!!!<33

18 Bitchesss!!!!!

Just A Hook-up....

Thought of you when I saw this..
Wed, 23 May 2012 08:20:23 -0400

Thought of you when I saw this..